then what ?

After 4 years waiting, finally she abandon me before i say something directly from my mouth.
Oh damn what the hell. Fell like useless person. Although she cut out the friendship and abandon me, I still love her. Please don't ask why.

Anyway I know some day this situation will happen. Just makeup my mind and stay calm, don't act cruelly. Then maybe some of my present for her will dispose into trash, but i don't mind. She already stole my heart from the first time.

Now, I just wanna cry.
let's get out this country.
anyway it's really hurt for me.
damn what the earth happened to me?.................